Ma Testimony be warned it's long!!

Were to begin..... well first got saved at age of 9, grew up in a christian home, mam, dad, 2 brothers, 2 sisters, was noisy (lol) but ok like, pretty normal, (ish). Had good pals in the church and really loved God with all my heart! Things started to change when I was about 13, started to hang out with different people, messing about in school, doing things I shouldn't be doing. Lost interest in church, God, my family, school anything good. Instead I was interested in having a good time with friends and just being a bad girl and popular, was life and soul of party, do anything for a laugh. Did lots of stuff I shouldn't of really, no need to go into detail, as doesn't really benefit anyone, just trust me was bad!

Life went from bad to worse, got deeper into the world, my parents left Wales when I was 16, they moved to Scotland. I was in a relationship at the time and refused to go, so stayed with my sister and her hubby. I then moved in with my then boyfriend, who turned out to be a right rat bag! He was a compulsive lier, a two timing cheat and was verbally abusive, which later led to him becoming physically abusive. Great stuff ey!

I'd hit rock bottom really, all I wanted for my life was to have someone of my own, to love me and to be happy. I was angry at my parents for leaving, angry that my sister was happily married with a little baby now, my nephew LJ, (16 now, boy Im getting old!). I had distanced myself from God along time before this, from my family and felt totally isolated and alone, with no where to go and no way out.

Anyway was sat alone on my bed, in my flat in a daze, defeated, after just moments earlier having a knife to my throat, then ding dong, doorbell goes. (no it wasnt avon lady hehe). It was my sister, with baby LJ in tow. I answered the door with a huge sigh of relief, then smiled so pleased to see her. Later i discovered that my sister had come to see me, after a dream the night before, that I needed her help. Now we both believe that this dream was from God, as I did so badly need her! God always sends in the time of need. I whispered to her some of what had happened, as the BF was asleep in the bath. She said grab a bag your coming with me, so I did and we left. Just about half a mile down the road, the BF came after us shouting abuse at us both, even tho lil Lj was there. After realising he was drawing too much attention to himself he went off.

Got to my sisters, we talked and talked, she fed me up, as I'd lost alot of weight, because of lifestyle and stress. She opened her home up to me once again, for this I will always be grateful to her and hubby. We had to get a solicitor and an enjunction with power of arrest was put in place. He never troubled me again after that.

Me and my sis got our relationship back on track, we shared eachothers hurts and learnt a lot from eachother, growing close once again. I love my sister very much, she's always been like a mother to me and my best friend! An old friend from school after hearing what had happened was concerned, and decided to set me up on a date lol, with my now hub Nick. Me and Nick knew eachother quite well and were quite good pals. We would always aggrivate eachother, even fight lol. I always liked him, before we officially went out, we got off with eachother a few times, then wouldn't speak for days hehe, because it was too weird. Well anyway we had our date, he got hammered, met my sis and threw up in her gutter. He sure knows how to make a good impression! (hehe).

We have been inseparable ever since, (awwwwww), I got a shared house near to my sister, my sis nagged us to go to church, I said no, but Nick said yes, (only to impress my sister lol). Anyway we went, it was great, weird at first, felt god speaking to me, as if he was directing every sermon right at me. The same went on for a few weeks, but it was as if I didn't want to let go of my hurts and struggles, I fought for a while longer, but God was melting me a bit at a time. untill in the end I gave in, at my house alone on the bed I just prayed, Lord come back into my life, heal my hurts and he did. I felt peace and joy and cried, a good cry a release of pain and a joy that followed. nick also came back to God shortly afterwards and we soon got married and had our daughter, (now 13, wow I am old!). We also have a son hes now 11. And God is good!

One scripture that sticks out to me throughout my walk with God is John 15, the vine and the branches. Im no great preacher, have a simple faith, but I love the Lord and his word. He is my vine, I am his branch and I know that as long as I remain attatched to him, I have true life and I can talk to him whenever and he will see me ok. He loves me he died for me, he wants me to spend eternity with him and I love him lots! Hes a friend of sinners, he is the bright and morning star, he is my everything.